Trigger warning – suicide
Thanks to Jaycob for agreeing to do this, it isn’t easy sharing your story and speaking out, you can follow him on twitter at https://mobile.twitter.com/jaycm1344
It’s 2019, and we still haven’t gotten there yet. It’s 2019 and we still cant talk about mental health. It’s 2019 and still, each day, 123 people a day die by suicide, 79% of those being male. When are we going to get past this “Stiff upper lip” mentality for men and come to the realization that men have emotions, men feel things, we don’t HAVE to be these stoic figures that the world has wanted us to be for so long.
In the year 2016, I tried committing suicide. I took a handful of pills, laid down, and hoped to die. I was two years into my marriage and was trying to be this stoic husband that I thought my wife needed me to be, and it all just became too much for me to handle. I ended up in the hospital for 12 days between the medical unit and the behavioral health unit, after which i was in outpatient treatment for the next six months.
All of this could have been prevented had I not bought into the stigma of mental illness. All of this could have been prevented if I had just asked my wife or family for help. I’m nearly 3 years removed from my suicide attempt and I am stronger now than I ever thought I would be. Yes, I’ve gone back into the hospital for more treatment, and spent time in various forms of therapy, but you know what, that’s okay.
Men don’t need to be these perfect beings that go on about their days as if nothing has affected them. Men can cry, men can feel, men can hurt, and it is okay to show it.
Hopefully by 2020 we won’t have to have this conversation.
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